The drone of the various machines that kept this voyage alive never ceased. It seemed a mockery to Michaël, who seemed incapable of deciding where to look - at the corpse of his father, twisted in a harrowing pose further down the hall, or at the man who with beady eyes stared at him. He forced himself to look at both, flicking his eyes back and forth - the alternative, to withdraw from this scene, into himself, to forget; that was worst of all. That was where the memory was, the look in his father's eyes that never seemed to acknowledge that what Michaël tried to say. When he flicked his eyes and they rested momentarily at the corpse, the glassy, half-closed eyes of his father acknowledged: he had never know what he made his son feel and now, definitively, never would. This goal that Michaël had been working towards had become an illusion, a memory of desire - the man with the cowboy hat seemed almost like... an escape.
The man with the hat took his cigarette, which had not half burned, and flicked it away to some place Michaël's eyes did not follow. "Oh yes, kid," the man laughed, "life's a not game - I can offer you the way out of all your worries - want to play an actual game - do you want to be the hero?"
Jason shook his head. "Don't, Michaël... we- we can fix this. Don't leave us again, don't go... there again... I'd follow and we'd never come back."